i am WFH/out sick today. i've been fighting something mild for a few days and the stupid flu shot from yesterday probably sent my body over the edge. a friend is bringing over wonton soup shortly so help feed this cold, so yay! sadly, my plans for awesome sushi and jaunting around in the city tonight will have to be rescheduled since i have a pretty full weekend ahead and it's more sensible to take it easy so that i can give my body the rest it needs to recover quickly.
other than being a sickie, life is moving along and it's becoming pretty swell. several life adjustments had to be made recently, some of which were extermely difficult and took a LOT of self-discipline but in the end i knew i had to do what was best for ME. i think i spent too much time worrying about what other ppl wanted, what other ppl thought, and how i could help THEM. i didn't stand behind my own values b/c i thought i was this all-powerful, influential, giving and caring person who had what it takes to make a difference in someone else's life and in the process, i somehow got myself caught up in an upside down, topsy-turvy world where nothing was quite what it seemed and one where i lost trust in myself and in others. that was probably the worst part; losing trust in myself. i didn't trust myself to communicate my desires and expectations effectively, i didn't trust that i was saying the right things, and i certainly didn't trust myself enough to have it in me to put my foot down and put the brakes on a (self) destructive cycle. with the support of a few key friends, old and new alike, i was able to pull through it and start 'normalizing' my life.
one day, i might write about what i've learned in the last year but it might not be anytime soon since i'm still trying to understand WTF it is i did learn, if anything.
i leave you with pics of 1) memo-holder robots that someone made/gave to me this week (robots, robots, robots!!!) and of 2) halloween w/ 'ass backwards'.
seriously, a guy coming out of a donkey's ass, d*cks in boxes and a banana pug (get it??!?!?! a BANANA-PUG!!!). too awesome.
there are a lot of parties, celebrations and events being piled into our already booked weekends from now until the end of the year.
doug and i have one weekend this month where nothing is scheduled. nothing - for the whole weekend. and just that one weekend alone. chaeli will be staying at my parents' place.
and you know i'll want to head out somewhere nice for dinner. probably with friends, actually, so we can have an adult night. where, i don't know. somewhere new and interesting.
i love this season. i do. i (knock on wood) just hope that we all stay healthy enough to enjoy all these fun things we have planned. a run-down of events we've got schedule:
- ada and hoa's duo birthday party
- cathy's daughter's birthday party
- SCAW charity concert followed by dinner ath roger mooking's kultura
- stuart mclean's reading/music concert after dinner on baldwin street
- disney on ice followed by a visit to city hall and dinner
- visit from MIL for an extended weekend
- visit to a christmas tree farm
and then, of course, christmas and new year's. and ta-dah! hello 2010!
actually, the peppermient mocha at starbucks is a tad too sweet for my taste. but i love the minty flavour so it's hard to resist.
the heaven part really isn't just the drink. it's that i took the day off, got the house cleaning done in the morning (so i know it's out of the way for the weekend), gone for a very good, strength-circuit class from hell, had a very yummy turkey sandwich with sparkling water and am now listing to tunes while surfing at starbucks (god bless 2 hour free hotspot a day here).
the mocha latte is my dessert.
and i have about 2.5 hrs more before i have to go pick up little miss.
i'm loving it!
I was worried yesterday because both the honey and I had to go to work, leaving our diarrhea dog in the house alone. I got home around 5:45, and miracle of miracles, no messes! YAY! Boy, now I know a little bit of how new parents feel. Except babies have diapers.
Bucky seems to be quickly improving, maybe because of the antibiotic he's on.
This month's Bon Appetit magazine included an article called "The 7 Rules of the Italian Kitchen." Good stuff such as pay attention to what foods grow near you and what's in season, use leftovers creatively in new dishes, keep it simple, etc. But my favorite was this:
... another sad day for us :(.
nothing much to say at the moment so here are a couple songs which are more 'uplifting' than this post (i meant to rave about these songs earlier in the week and am now realizing i won't be in the right mood to do so anytime soon) and a quote someone posted this morning on their FB.
".. and the air is thin
and it blows through your skin
and you feel like something
is about to begin.
and the walls spin
and you're paper-thin
from the haze of the smoke
and the mescaline ..."
Sigh, Bucky is a sick little guy right now. I'll spare you the details, but I'll say this... diarrhea. In the house. We're getting the carpet cleaned but may have to get it replaced; it's in bad shape right now.
We took him to the vet this morning and she's concerned that it's actually a chronic condition (but obviously worse in the last two days). I always thought he was just still adjusting to his new food and getting better... but apparently he should have been fine by now. So, now Bucky is on an anti-biotic, de-wormer (just in case), and a low-residue prescription dog food. I hope he gets better soon, because this dog food sounds like crap... lots of grain, and it includes a chicken "by-product meal". Eesh... I only bought it because the vet assured me that this was best for Bucky since he has some kind of GI issue.
so my co-workers are starting to comment on my weight loss. which, really, is good news. i mean, if people are noticing, then what i'm doing must be working, right? but i don't know - call me superstitious. it's just that in the past, whenever i start to get people noticing, is when my progress starts to weaken. and i go back to my past, bad habits.
then again, what did i expect? did i think that i could lose a bunch of weight, get toned and then one day, come to work and THEN have everyone notice all at once?
i know, i know... i'm in control of my own destiny here. and it's up to me to keep moving forward with my healthy path. anyway - today i had greek yogurt with a tablespoon of yogurt, plus a granola and dried fruit mixed into it. i'm addicted to having this as my breakfast lately. yum!
The Academy Is... played an acoustic version of their set for the San Antonio leg of the AP Fall Ball Tour since Butcher (their drummer) was out sick. Boo, but thank goodness for Youtube!
